December 2010
Day Two -Something I’m self conscious about.
Hmm. Im really weird about my thighs and stomach. I think they’re too big, but I’m getting over it. I will find someone who loves them, big or 5 pounds lighter. And I just always feel like people look at me weird..
I had that Jim & Pam relationship. That Corey and Topanga kind of love. Well almost. Not quite so perfect, but that deep. And I gave it up. And I’ve regretted it everyday for the past two months. All I want is forgiveness. Just a text saying, “I miss you, come over.” Thats all. He has no idea what that would mean to me. This is my punishment. To wait. But I’m strong...
you know what frustrates me? friends that stop trying to see you. but hang out with everyoneee else. what? am i less of a friend? did i not make the cut?
